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this week end was pretty fun i love my friends!
im 17!!!!
and why do i still feel the same way about you???...but no one can know!
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[21 Oct 2005|05:22pm] |
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hey eveyone...that reads this witch im guessing is like one person but im guessing that seeing that we might not have school on monday people are going to be bored like me and come online and look at the live jornals that last thing yoiu really wanna do. but its somthing to do and now that im in atlanta with no one my ow age...i here typeing i love it here it is soooooooo pretty.... like i dont understand why people would wanna live in florida after liveing here..its like perfect not to cold but not hott and its hilly and just god i love it...so yeah we left wed night b\c we new we wanted to leave but we didnt wanna get in traffic so we left...o well i missed school darn! i think im going to cry lol so yeah if you cant tell school has sucked really bad spanish is killing me! like so bad and i just wanna it all 2 be over ..i wanna get out of that city i mean its fun and i love the people but god i hate being this age...these years better not be the best years of my life. so yeah but birthday is in a week! th big 17 lol i will finaly go to a R movie! lolgod im such a loser! well i guess thats about it seeing that i havnt been in school for 2 days i haveing nothing for you....and im over the guy i liked but i need to find someing new...dosent have to be a guy just somthing to put my mind to....b\c if ont im going to be bored! well everyone keep safe! i love you xoxox
willma leave us alone!
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so yeah i updates just not in this journal b\c everything thats going on in my life you dont really need to know!
wink wink..
all you need 2 know is i love you!
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[25 Sep 2005|04:18pm] |
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this weekend was awsome!!! friday i didnt go to school, got up late and didnt really feel all that great...so slept for like ever then i went to school after school picked up my books and crap then went shopping for dez birthday gift with sarah and me met up with kelly there..at the mall...then picked up allie and went to sarahs, ate and chilled and then tought we would go to the game...witch sucked! the game did... the weather was raining like crazy but i loved it...then went all the way back to sarahs to get my phone that i forgot! im so dumb! then home, watched a really good movie then the big day dez surprise party!!! ahhhhh, so cleaned my room and then went over dez's which was like about 5 and everyone was calling me...and i almost blew it talking to cory b\c i ran down stairs and i never do that and dez followed b\c shes a little ....(fill in the blank) and was trying 2 hear what i was saying 2 cory...he asked how 2 spell her name so i was spelling it and then i hung up and ran back up stairs and she was right there and i was like oooooooo shit! lol but i asked her about it later (at dinner) and she didnt really hear what i was saying, just knew i was say stuff about something but she had noooooo idea! so we got ready and left to go...her mom called and told me to "take my time" and if you know i dont take my time on the road! so the whole time i was like doing like 5 under the speed limit and well thats not me at allllll, and later dez said she noticed but didnt say anythig thing....so on then the donny called and i was trying 2 get out of him...."is everyone there" he didnt get it at allll! tard! then i drove around the parking lot like 50 times! dez was get pissed b\c we were "late" when really we werent the ones late ...everyone eles was...so she walked in not knowing a thing! and it was great! amazing just so perfect! and it was probly the most fun i have ever had at a dinner! ever! so so so so so fun like everyone came and holy cow....it was a blast... then after walked a round a little then went to B&N and played train and then went home dez and sarah spent the night and we talked alot and helped sarah with names and pulled out my yearbooks...great times! o well that was my amazing weekend!
thanks everyone for coming!
love you all!!!!
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school sucks!
whats new?
what i do 2 put off my homework!
A- AREA CODE YOU ARE IN RIGHT NOW: 239...its like the coolest place ever
B- BIRTHDAY: oct 28!!!! that means 42 days!
C- CURRENT CRUSH: omg im not telling, but i do have one! but i have no chance
D- FAVORITE DRINK: DP
E- EATING CURRENTLY: drinking water
F- FAVORITE FOOD: thats a hard one, prob everything I shouldnt eat!
G- GO TO FOR ADVICE? my mom, or megan, but i dont rwally do either that offten
I- I THINK: i wanna date for homecoming this year~
J- JOB: hate it...but pays the big bucks!
K- KIDS: yes plez...
L- LOVE: not yet..maybe one day
M- MOVIE: the only 2 that come to mind or the notebook and euro trip
N- NUMBER: 16
O- OVER OR UNDER: under, just buc Au-g said over
P- PERFUME/COLOGNE: as long as you dont smell bad...
Q- QUIRKS ABOUT YOURSELF: i have a leg shaking problem
R- ROAD TRIPS: omg so many, and cant wait to take more! NC with my mom was great
S- SMOKE?: eww
U- UNDERWEAR COLOR: pink duhhh
V- VEGAS: got to get there soon!
W- WISHFUL THINKING: that my crush askes me to homecoming and i lose 10 lbs.
X- XXX- 3 big kisses!
Y- YOUR FAVORITE YEAR OF YOUR LIFE? well year...might be 8th grade but this summer was by far the funnest thing i think i have ever done!
Z- ZODIAC SIGN: sorpio
cant wait for tahoe!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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hummmmmmmm...god i have a 4 day weekend starting tom and i have a huge feeling it is going to suck the big one! if anyone has any ideas you know who to call!!!!! love you all lots! i wanna go 2 the other house but thats prob not going to happen! damn you people! lol xoxoxo night
for some reason im in a really depressed pissed off mood i think i have been watching to much news on the huricane! GOD bless them!
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i found this and you so need to read it!
Can you raed tihs? Olny seewt poelpe can. I cdnuolt blveiee taht I cluod aulaclty uesdnatnrd waht I was rdanieg. The phaonmneal pweor of the hmuan mnid, aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at Cmabrigde Uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoatnt tihng is taht the frist and lsat ltteer be in the rghit pclae. The rset can be a taotl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit a porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae the huamn mnid deos not raed ervey lteter by istlef, but the wrod as a wlohe. Amzanig huh? yaeh and I awlyas tghuhot slpeling was ipmorantt! if you can raed tihs rpsoet it
see i do have a method to my madness....you dont need to know how to spell i always new that!
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yeah so....um been a while, but i have been crazy busy and this weekend was devoted to finding a twerp outfit and i think i got one so im excited for that, other then that got a myspace..and thats fun...and have school tom so good night!
i miss him!
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So yeah its monday and im already ready for friday!good i hope this while year dosent go this slow! This week end was fun, hung out with liz like all weekend which is always nice b\c i never get to see that girl! picked her up friday from school whne to her house changed went shoping for stuff bought something, i really needed that after a long week! then we saw dukes of hazard after eating, it was pretty good, funny not the best story like but who the hell cares when johnny knoxvil is in it! ahhh so hot! lol and it was funning seeing jessica simson try to act...lol wasnt bad...for the what? 3 lines she said lol then i guess chilled and went home. sat mor'in me and liz tryed to get up early but the alarm went off ..looked at each outher an went back to bed for another 2 hours lol then went to bob eveans then to her house to pick up money, when to the mall for like 4 hours and bought nothing! we found alot but all i had was a credit card and i used it friday and i didnt want mommy to get mad lol! so then we went home beeing so tired we really didnt wanna do anything!!!!! but beth called and she need a pickup! from not being able to see ryan and i could no resist! shes just needed us and her brother left her home alone...lol so me liz donny dez and bethdid some stuff at home got bored so went out...drove like everywhere and then got back about 11:15ish..on are way home we were asked to go to a party...but i wasnt into it...so we went home! went to bed and sunday liz left early and i slep most of the day..put my homework off to the last sec...and then went to bed....
today sucksed like everyother school day has been going! i hope 2 god it gets better soon or im going to get back to the old anna...the depress no funn to hang out with anna....well here to that! i have to finish the homework right now b\c tonight is yes you guessed it laguna night at megans!!! fun fun well hopes it a good one...good night see you all sooner then later!
ps i miss talking to the only one that seems to listens, to bad he wont be reading this to know i miss him so much! xoxox only if you knew!
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so what do you think? your thoughts? Im really confused...i just dont know what to do....plezz help!
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school sucks! i hate it! homework sucks! i hate it! work sucks i hate it! weekdays suck! i hate them! everything sucks! i hate everything!
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so frist day of school was today and god it sucked i mean i love seeing all the people but it was so boring! every class was the same! the paper to sign and blah blah blah and all the crap about the honor code...i wonder if it is really going to change the school? well shall see... i still think it creap! who cares!but yeah i like all my classes not so much some of the teachers but ..i will learn to like them in time i always do...so tonight i went to see bad news bears, it was cute...not like the best but you know it was really funny at points! and then off to cold stone where me lisa audra and clouti met up with megan and matt, fun times love ice cream! so then went to a park and crap andcape home and watched TV i dont know what eles to do so im here telling you about my boring life...lol what fun well tom night cant wait! it will be fun! and then comes monday a fun filled day of school!...see you there!
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hey hey! dont you hate it when you write like a 200 word email and for some reson god hates you and it all is gone in a click! and you didnt liek save it or anythign yeah....just happened with an email i was writing i wanted to kill someone!
so today was fun went to dez's the blackhawk waiting for clouti 2 be done with his crap and played cards...the guy that works there chris played with us for a bit...and then we left picked up cloot and then i had my first golf lesson...haha im so bad o well i get it...maybe!??!!? lol fat chance! so the last few days of summer have been fun last night went to see stealth with cloot and it was pretty good and then barns and noble and then th night befor that i went sailing on matt B boat and it was so amazing! oif i could i waould do that everynight it was so peaceful! the best thing i have done in a while...and the night befor that went to matt and beths and played outside and talked and stuff just hanging out....i know of this is intersting o well thats about it...this summer was great the best ever! by fare..if i saw you at all this summer i wanna so thanks you so much for making this summer the best and if i didnt see you i miss you hae cant wait for you to make this the best school year of my life! one more night of summer!...it is going to be crazy!!!!!!!!!!! cant wait! love you guys!
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ok school is way 2 close! i have my schedule and my locker number and it just to soon to say that!
well here it is, if you have you schedule and we do or dont have any classes together ...post!
FIRST SEM
1. world religions
2. pre-cal HON
3. spanish II
4. AP US his
5. LUNCH
6. Physics I HON
7. English 3
8. PHOTO 1
2nd SEM
1. Catholic social J
2. pre-cal HON
3. spanish II
4. AP US his
5. LUNCH
6. Painting II
7. English 3
8. Physics I HON
all i know so far is i have Lunch with Cate and AP US HIS with megan!!!! post if anythign is the same for you, or if we dont have anything together! i hate when that happends! well thats about it love ya!
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hello hey went to KTs house to night fun fun, i got up at like 315 today b\c i couldnt sleep last night...god i hate this..i have work tom morin i think and i dont know how im going to get up! summers almost over and it went way to fast!!! ahhhhhhh i have my books to read still...but i wont ...so yeah thats about it love you guys!!!! good night!
how can you tell if your heart likes a guy or your brain? whitch ones right? is there one thats wrong?
god, sooo confused!
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hello once again
so i was talking to some one about drugs...and they were kind of trying to tell me that we werent a bad thing...and for some it might be a good thing, but i have yet to see it. he said that it makes him problems go away and when he comes down from that high hes a better person....a better person? those problems are still there and they will be till you get another high...i mean i dont know i have never done a drug....but if a person gave me a pill that would get ride of all my pain and sorrow and everything bad, i would not take it, not even in my darkest hour...it like if i have a back pain i wont take a pill for it b\c what if you do something bad to it b\c you pain if coverd up and hurt it even more, if you would have nave taken the pill befor you make that move the pain would have told you not to do so... and then it hurts even more when it wore off...."came down from that high" i dont think you can cover up your pains like that.... i just dont understand that yet, i dont fear pain or saddness, i fair notfeeling at all. with fear and saddness there is good and happy things, with not feeling you have nothing good.i dont hate crying b\c i know there is a smile around the coner..if i numb my self to my sadness i would numb myself to happyness...and that ok ill take saddness if happy come with it...i look back on summers that have past and i dont have a bad summer in my mind..i know there was one but i cant think of any...its b\c all saddness fades! it kind of funny im not happy what so ever right now ...more even sad then anything but i have almost relized it ok....
i have always obsseced with the fact of being sad as a bad thing and only by default making myself more sad...depressed for being sad....in this world we "arent normal" if were sad...in every movie it ends happy and if your not like them your not normal... the "freaks" of secoity...are the goths...and thats b\c they are veiwed as always being sad....but they have excepted it...is that better?...just to, ok im going to be depressed, but i will be happy to...i think the world need to get over that fact that people are going to feel what they are going to feel and there is not right or wrong...and if everyone was like that we would all be the same....
drugs are another way people in our world creat to have the fauls happyness....its just a cover! if you would just beyourself everything would be find! we dont need drugs!
its funny i need to tell myself this right....well im getting there im trying...something is missing for me...i dont know what it is...no clue what so ever but i know it there could be a person, it could be something i need to see inside myself, something i need to see in the world...something
you know i always tought that i feared fear itself...i dont fear fear it is a good thing..we all know this...when you fear somethign you know something is there 2 be feared and thats ok b\c fear is a good thing is helps you know what wrong...but the thing that i fear the most is....nothing...the "unknown" i know its cliche but it true...not knowing make me fear it and make me not do something i should....i dont know where im going with this ...lol just confused, not knowing where im going to collage scars me to death!...and no knowing if im going 2 make the right choice, what if i make the wrong one?!?!? gad i i hate thing about that, and who ever said life mattered! you dies..thats all you can really count on...i dont fear death b\c i know it going to happen! i fear how and why but not itself i cant wait really...i if could pick a date to die...i might pick tom...just to get rid of all the unknown in the middle!...i dont know im just confused on the point of all this and ummmmmmmmm it really scares me!!!!!!
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did some fun stuff, beth and me saw a great movie, Charlie and the Chocolate Factory good i love jonny depp! he is great in every movie!!!!! then played cards and everything was a blast i love you guys! lisa i heart you! and beth! and donny!....and everyone!
2day shopped with dez didnt buy much xoxoxo played games at her house i, me, the worst speller in the world won sracble!!!!!! that is crazy! like by 50 point! omg never won that game! ok well im going to go eat some wings and then off to bed... xoxoxo much to all my bestest friends!
only 3 more weeks!
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so aaahhhh im not gunna lie! i had a blash to night i sucked being the hoe b\c i feel like no one had fun..i hope you did...and i freakin didnt win o well i called it! but beth won and thats makes me even happyer! yeah!!!! my wallet not so happy but o well i start working back up soon...
so convention this year
im sure you guys dont care but im going to type it b\c i need to remember
got there a few days early witch was great b\c i have to leave a day early b\c of denice the stupid hurricane! so yeah brent and the 2 miks were not presant! and that was sad no canada!!!!! but we still have fun New Orleans is just a crazy town period...everything is always moving! like we were down in the lobby till 5 in the morning and well it was still loud and alot of people coming and going....i think this had the chance to be the best convention ever!!!!!! but brent and mikr werent there and welll there was no one to laught at....mant sad times. bourbon street was amazing...i didnt know there was a play like that in the US! it was flat out crazy! im not ganna lie! lol and a buch of other stuff but i dont think you care!
last nioght went to B & N thats always fun i dont thinki have ever gone there and not had a blast! i love m friends! i really do after went over KTs and talked about stuff that people didnt care about that one thing about her....she lesons thanks alot i needed that!
so i guess thats about it im glad im back but i miss caitlin rogers like crazy i love you girl! i coming to visit! xoxoxo
love you all!
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